My journey to wellness did not truly begin until after I plunged to the bottom of the abyss. It wasn’t until I was well on my way back to wellness, that I started to truly comprehend the power we have to change our own path.
My first career was as a software designer with a B.S. in electrical engineering from M.I.T. This work was mentally stimulating, but ultimately, not a spiritually satisfying career. Something was missing.
Since the age of 12, I studied various styles of martial arts, earning a black belt in TaeKwonDo and one in Choy Lay Fut. These arts instilled a sense of inner spiritual awareness and a desire for growth that evolved over time. I longed to find my true path.
After exploring Western medical fields, it was Eastern medical philosophy that attracted me. I studied Acupressure, Shiatsu, Tui Na and Western herbs, and advanced into Acupuncture and Chinese Medicine. I earned an M.S. in Oriental Medicine, and became a licensed Acupuncturist and Herbalist in 1998. But, instead of creating a practice from my heart, I conformed to create a ‘western style’ practice to succeed, and my path still didn’t feel right.
In 1999, my Mother’s sudden death, pulled the rug out from under me, and I lost my way. I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted. I distracted myself by pouring everything into working out and physical activities. I jumped on anything that wore me out, and kept me from feeling my heart. After 9/11 happened, I rashly leapt into the police academy in Jan. 2002. Now, I was so far off my path, my whole being felt wrong. This led me into a headlong collision with myself.
In July of 2002, I developed a relatively rare auto-immune disorder called Mixed Connective Tissue Disorder or MCTD. My life as I knew it was over. This illness has every nastiness one could imagine. I developed chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, Reynaud’s syndrome, scleroderma, trigeminal neuralgia, facial numbness, acid reflux, difficulty swallowing and loss of motility and digestive capabilities.
My life was filled with one misery after another, and it seemed each day brought a new type of pain or suffering. My brain was in a fog, and I couldn’t distance myself enough from my misery to formulate a healing plan. I took many harsh western drugs. Methotrexate, prednisone, morphine, and neurontin, to name a few. I felt my body wasting away and my life energy leaving. Realizing that the Western drugs were only speeding my descent I discarded them in 2004, but I continued to spiral downwards. In 2005, I was at a lifetime low, the epitome of misery, and I came within a hair’s breadth to ending it all.
In trying to end my life, I had to give up, completely. In that moment of letting go, I opened myself to receive guidance. I realized I wasn’t finished with this life yet, and I wanted to stay. My guidance revealed the universal truth that led me to know I could change things. I took responsibility for creating my life as it was, and resolved to manifest a new one.
I embarked on an inner journey of exploration in order to change my outer journey. I poured nutrition into my body, and when I was strong enough I added my herbal formulas back into my wellness program. I opened myself to receiving help from people, experiences, and from spirit. I discovered treasures of healing: a useful tip overheard; watching someone accomplish a task; a line in a song; a book reread that I had forgotten about; a workshop that inspired. If what I learned helped me, I kept it, if it didn’t, I moved on.
Slowly, inch by inch, I made progress. It was hard work, and sometimes it seemed as if I moved backwards. I learned to be grateful for all the little miracles, celebrating my successes. All the while, I did not let anyone tell me I could not be well again. I held tenaciously to visions of my own wellness, constantly creating positive affirmations and working to surround myself with positive inspirational objects and people.
Now, there is not a trace of chronic fatigue, or fibromyalgia, I have full use of my hands, having beaten back the scleroderma. My acid reflux is gone and I can eat and digest solid food once more. I’m focused on creating a life that follows my heart.
On my journey, I have learned a great deal about the exploration of health and wellness, and discovered I want to share what I have learned with others in need.
One important key to success is finding ways to create a positive outlook and vibration, then the specific healing method becomes less important. My personal experiences have taught me to believe we can create anything. So let’s do it!
There is a healer within all of us, let us join together to be catalysts for positive change, and create a new paradigm for health and wellness that will rock this world! Contact me today to schedule your complimentary 30-minute wellness consultation and find your way back to health.